Song Of The Season

This is part of my "Song of the Day" theme, but this is what I feel for now. It's my song of the season. I'm tired of a lot of things. Basically, I'm really tired. I'm not satisfied. Not at all. There's more to life and I know that He will reveal it in His time. But right now, I want to be hungry, I want to be thirsty. I want nothing of this world to ever have a hold on me except Jesus; my Saviour, my Redeemer, my Solid Rock, my Shelter and my Strength.

I'm tired of losing my reason for living. I don't want to lose my focus anymore. This song is my cry, my cry for a better future in Christ. Don't be content, continue to hunger and thirst for Him.

Believe - Hillsong

I say on Sunday how much I want revival

But then on Monday, I can't even find my Bible

Where's the power, the power of the Cross in my life?

I'm sick of playing the game of religion

I'm tired of losing my reason for living

Where's the power, the power of the Cross in my life?

I'm not content just to walk through my life

Giving in to the lies, walking in compromises now

We cry out as a generation that was lost

But now is found in the power of the Cross

We believe in You

We believe in the power of Your Word and its Truth

We believe in You

So we lay down our cause

That our Cross might be found in You

I'm not satisfied doing it my own way

I'm not satisfied to 'do church' and walk away

I'm not satisfied

There's no love in my life but You

I'm not satisfied living in yesterday's hour

I'm not satisfied to have the form but not the Power

I'm not satisfied

Lord, I am crucified in You

I'm not satisfied. And I'm not content just to walk through life as it is. There is more.

Running Away

"I'm leaving on a jetplane, I don't know when I'll be back again." Sigh..... How I wished that was true. Yeah, I'm on my 'slump' again. The 'slump' of wanting to go some place else and rejuvenate myself. I think I'm either too filled with the monotony of my life cycle, or I'm an almost-empty vessel giving too much of myself to too many things.

I think I'm a little bit of both. I am tired of my weekly cycle, it's not really 'exciting' anymore. I mean, it's sort of expected, in some ways. I usually know what's happening on most days that I don't get 'swept off my feet' over anything, well, at least not yet. On the other hand, I've been active in quite a few things that now, I feel like sitting back and not do anything but watch from the stands.

Hmm..... Maybe I'm being surrounded by too many people whom, at one point or another, are travelling to places or have just finished their travels. I wonder when my turn is going to come. My friends tell me to wait. Just wait. I've waited for close to 2 years already, but that's solely because I am dead set on going to one place only. I need a break, or so I think I do. The question is: When?

Walkin' On Heels

I have an interesting job. Interesting as in, I never knew that I would actually patrol the grounds of my company. I had the obvious displeasure (you'll see why) of patrolling the grounds with my company's security guard today, mainly because I'm taking over my officer's job functions. It's not hard to patrol the grounds as there are only 5 checkpoints. The only mention is, I was wearing heels that day. It's not high, but bad enough to cause discomfort, particularly on rocky tar roads, steep inclines, staircases and grassy patches. Also, not when the ground is wet, as it just rained earlier in the morning.

I wish I could have done this on another day when I'm wearing sports shoes, but that's not the case. It's not like I'm patrolling the grounds everyday, anyway. I sure hope not.

Do You See What I See?

The haze hit Penang Friday night after KL area was hit at the beginning of the week. It's not a pretty sight, as you can tell from the picture. It's actually a shot from my apartment room window. On a good day, you can actually see green mountains. As you can tell, you could only see within a mile radius. This was Saturday morning.





As for this one, it's suppose to overlook the ocean and the Penang Bridge. Nope, can't see anything.

I Drive Myself Crazy

My sister asked me the most fascinating question when I put this up on my MSN the other day; "I Drive Myself Crazy". How so?

Well, I thought I'd explain the reason behind that. Ever heard of the sentence "You Drive Me Crazy"? Unless you've been living in a cave, that title was also a hit song for a certain Britney Spears. Anyway, it brings me back to this, can people actually drive me crazy? Technically, maybe, but more so than not, it is myself that allows me to be driven to the point of insanity. Not following me?

See, no one controls your feelings except you. No one controls your emotions except you. No one controls your mind, your thoughts, your perceptions except you. Getting the point already? I thought so. Basically, if you're thinking too much about something that you shouldn't be thinking about, you're bound to drive yourself crazy. The same goes with worrying too much about things not meant to be worried about, imagining things that aren't there to be imagined.

We can't help but think of things, that is the function of our brain, but we can help limit it by removing unnecessary thoughts and perceptions. It is easier said than done, oh, for sure, but when your focus is correct, it will not be too hard. Remember, God will not overwhelm us. If we only look to Him more and more, surrender our thoughts and worries to Him, only then will we be enlightened and not burdened.

Song Of The Day

I was chatting with a friend and playing a selection of songs on my computer and this song, of all the other songs, attracted me the most. It is a song of acknowledgement. To acknowledge the One who saved me, the One who carries me through every joy and every hurt. It's a song of surrender, to let go, to trust and have faith in the One and Only.

I think this song will speak for itself and needs no explanation. I'm learning to trust my whole life to Him who walks before me, for He knows my name and He knows my every thought and desire. He's all I need.

Jesus, You're All I Need

Jesus, You're all I need

You're all I need

Now I give my life to You alone

You are all I need

Jesus, You're all I need

You're all I need

Lord, You gave Yourself so I could live

You are all I need

Oh, You purchased my salvation

And wiped away my tears

Now I drink Your living waters

And I'll never thirst again

For You alone are holy

I'll worship at Your throne

And You will reign forever

Holy is the Lord